it's the way you make me feel.

oh man, what am i gonna be doing with myself till results comes out besides rot at home??
soon i'll always be home alone in the mornings when school reopens and dat sucks.
the only thing i had to do now is tutoring(i know, unbelievable rite?) 3 kiddies who are all related to me.
don't think i'm allowed to work outside. uncle says it's a waste of time and i should be enjoying myself while i can before decidin what i want to do next. and i really don't know what else to do besides trying to adapt to a few changes in life.


hmmm..
i'm thinkin of picking back up my already abandoned and much loved guitar classes to expand my skills till i'm pro..hehe. or maybe i should join some sort of course on it..
only God knows how long it was since i cared for and touch my lifeless husband( which btw wasnt very long ago) and i bet the strings are rusty. in a dilemma cuz i'd be needing to keep my finger nails short and i am reluctant to cut it
a few more days to a new year, great. by then i'll have nothing much to look forward to. being a pessimist is so easy..dang..
but it'll be different this year cuz i won't be spending the last day of the year in sunway, attending watch night service.
this year it'll be spend in genting with grandma and aunt, having bbq again while waiting for the new year to arrive. fireworks in genting has got to be awesome.
and shyt, i gotta go for facial tomorrow..weeee...i'm so not excited. at the end of the day my face is gona hurt and look like some chicken backside.
anyway, happy new year to all. lotsa love too

a really short one...

rewind everything back to the day of the christmas presentation.. we did the whole thing and in my opinion, the choir did a great job... many many many people came... some i havent seen for ages and new faces among the crowd.

on christmas eve, everyone gathered in grandma's place for a jolly good dinner with loads of food.. then, my favourite part : singing carols...

we camwhored to pass the time in my grandma's room...

then, christmas day was at church.. luncheon then its genting for me...

this time it was a different cuz it was a little too quiet there but all the same it didnt stop me from playing pool despite the cold weather.. the midnight strolls on the misty roads.

loi drop by for a while with his super cute and hot cousin after midnight in his class t-shirt..lol..semangat..

next day, we had barbeque..

it rained the whole day so by night it was very misty...

ooo.. and i got this for christmas.. and i bet vicky might be jealous..lol

i fancy this... thx jien yue :)

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our food..

which reminds me of something..

i'm takin that lonely road.. well, going somewhere is better than going nowhere at all rite..

another night of it then it's christmas.. can't wait for it to be over so that i could catch up with ivan..lol.. and lookin at pope's super red lips..

yesterday and today was awesome guys.. :)
but it left me empty...
i promised myself not to feel sad but how not to when knowing this is the closing of a chapter in my life...and darn it, christmas is coming soon..
even though we only started to get to really know each other for 2years, it feels like forever..lol..certain individuals that i got close with in those times(i hope u know who u are), u guys impacted my life in every way...how 'the gang' was formed which if i remembered correctly maran started to label us as that first..
i wished i've taken a different path some months back that i didn't..then maybe i wouldn't feel the way i do now..
and i hate logging on to facebook nowdays.. everytime i log in i see myself getting tagged in pictures labelled MEMORIES, when i wanted those memories to last.. seeing those makes it hard to let go...gee, i really want to dump facebook since forever too..haih..

anyways, a random summary of the whole thing of whatever that pops into my brain...
they arrived and i went to look for them but couldn't find them..
naturally i panicked like hell and it turns out they were in a different building altogether..
then, theme park..
nothing much except that me and loi we decided to go for the spinning cup thing while the rest of them went for d other ride, something he have never played in his life(sad rite)..
we were spinning way too fast even before the ride started and when we got out i couldn't walk straight and we both felt like vomitting..
dat bugger, told him to stop spinning but i think he didn't hear me and he kept spinning..
the ice cream eating session and ferris wheel with my siblings while waiting for them to ride the selero shot thing.. then, we all went separate ways due to some reasons and hobby..
me, mandy and yin yie ended up lookin for a place to rest our sorry arse and toes while waiting to go back..
on the way back was scary as it was windy...
how ironic is it before we enter the cable car someone said something about dying( i think it's levi) and loi said u wont die unless if u saw the Light but i saw the big shining spot Light 3 friggin times on the way down from awana..
and i'm so lovable that mandy and yin yie wants to sit with me...
mandy even chased hanson away when he was about to enter the cable car for mua..lol..
reached back, bath, went to cabana and played pool with sis then with loi..
dere was a mat salleh there dat time and he wanted to play with loi and well, loi lost to me and the mat salleh was in a way insulting him..and the mat salleh is sitting right infront of me now using his laptop too..
then, it's to their apartment and we played cards or was it truth or dare till they all decided they wana sleep.. so i headed back to my place with the plan to stay up the whole night playing ps 2 with loi just so i can see the sunrise but i slept anyway cuz i had terrible headaches and maybe a little drunk..darn it, i missed it..
next day, they all went out for breakfast except 4monkeys(me,yin yie,mandy and loi)... trying my very best to sleep with occasion migrains but they(u know who u are) all potong steam by calling me..haih.. we all went to my place while i ate and played cho tai dee with them.. then its out lunch with dad too... sent bags to some of them leaving early and the rest of us went to strawberry farm to kill time before their bus leaves..
so they left.. yeah..lol..

no pictures available because i'm waiting for those smonkeys to either mail em to me or post it on fb for me to steal them and my dad's camera isnt with me now..maybe by then i'll type a proper post with pics too.. :)

owh, and STEFFY.. if u happen to read this.. HAVE A SWEET BIRTHDAY!!

genting

its probably too late to update on it now knowing how my memory always forgets certain stuff..
so, went up to genting with my family, duh...
first night we had barbeque by the swimming pool..had to wait for the marshmellows to arrive and i spent like endless of minutes standing by the fire trying to roast them using forks but it didnt work and i end up burning my fingers..damn, its suffering..my aunt came up with a better idea which is to place them on the wire thing...i rant bout it bein cancerous as usual but i ended up eating them anyway..lol.. then it's to the bar to play pool with hot cups of milo, ice cream and pastries.. had the chance to bond with my nieces, bullying them, playing with them...
then the next day, early morning went for morning walk then we went up to theme park in the afternoon.. played a few of the stuff there and it scared the hell out of me especially the flying coaster..didnt realize i was screamin so loud till my mum complimented on my screaming..lol.. then daniel and my sis came up... we had steamboat, crowding the com in my dad's office then it's futsal..
we played like smonkeys :).. at least i did.. my mum was the iron lady(goalkeeper)lol.. to top it all
we defied everythin xin wei told us not to do( eat fried food and take care of ourselves) but what we did was injure ourselves durin futsal and ate fried stuff..
been wakin up around 6sumthin in the morning since chem paper and its killing me, i was suppose to be hibernating not waking up so early in the morning...
tried to fall back asleep today and i end up dreamin of him..gah.. bloody annoying since he was suppose to be out of sight and out of mind..